*This post contains explicit content due to a quote*
"And I hear you've ended up fine, and I've heard you're making out alright. I've heard you still don't like the cold outside, and I've heard you still got trouble tracking time. And I heard you said one time, that I never even fucking crossed your mind. And I guess I'll act like that's fine, but you should know that you cross mine all the time."
Citizen-"Tracking Time"
"We both fell asleep on the floor, then I left you there. You spent so many days alone, so I'll kill myself to make things fair. See, I just hated being tired cause I can't seem to sleep anymore. You and all your friends were all right about me all along. Do you sleep anymore? I would love to be patient, but I just won't wait. I'm getting sick and tired of the smile that I fake every day. I would love to speak my mind, but I can't think straight. I would love to feel alive again, but I'm not used to change. Do you sleep anymore? And if it make's you feel better, I'll be on my way. And all this time I sit around and think, but there's nothing to say. And if you want to feel better, I'll stay out of your way. And I would love to feel alive again, but I guess that can wait.
Do you sleep anymore?"
Citizen-Sleep
I've been on a big Citizen kick lately. Not entirely sure why. It might be because when I try to listen to any of my favorite harder bands my head starts to ache due to the new dosage of medicine my doctors put me on and the lack of sleep lately. "Tracking Time" is one of my favorite songs by Citizen thus far (I've never really listened to a lot of their work until recently), and it's somewhat relevant to my feelings currently. Although, recently, I've been more focused on my future and school rather than past stuff. Sleep is my other favorite song by Citizen and it's pretty relevant because the new dosage I'm on plus recent anxiety has been keeping me up into the early hours of the morning and waking up multiple times after I finally fall asleep. I stress and stress and stress over school, and it seems no matter how long or hard I work on homework or how early I start to work on a project and manage my time it's still never enough and I end up stressing and frying my brains out with the stress and amount of material I try to cram in my head.
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